Do for YOU 1ST (consider it!)

Is it listening that’s good?  Wow sitting in the sauna text to talk or text to type apps, it’s the first time that I have used these types of apps. I thought I’d give it a go and see how easy it is to write a blog post or a message or a post, I wonder is it any easier. The funny thing is that I’m having to put in the periods and the commas and the colons and this at the other and capitalize some stuff that’s okay though. It’s not that I’ve gotten lazy to type, today 6 monitors probably 10 cables etc etc and I couldn’t get my computer working my computer works but the monitor aspect of it so it slowed me down on typing.
How could I still make a blog post even though I can’t type anything and here we are through technology a quick app quick download and I’m speaking into the phone and it’s typing away for me. This brings about a great idea if you’d like to write your book and become a writer via text to type or type to text type app.

What is really going on though? Another Saturday evening rolls around and I mentioned that I am in the sauna getting hot and I don’t know how long the phone might last in this temperature “device overheating tap here to see details” so with that I’m going to pause this and I’ll get back to it a little later and we’ll dive into some Saturday evening thoughts.

We’re back time has passed, just toweling off and grabbing a coca-Cola and a smile. The next step in the process is to sit outside, today folks it’s been raining a lot here in Ireland. No it’s great conditions to sauna just got to get to the roof area. I made it to have a quick sit down.

So chat to speak out a lot of things to talk about where we going to start on Saturday what’s going on in my mind and this will go as a blog post on my random thoughts blog. I’m currently sitting outside in the rain in a roofed area. I’m talking into the phone to create this blog post, steam is coming off my body and that’s a typical Saturday night. A lot of you had liked and commented nice comments to me on my most recent blog post so thank you very much for that, shout out to all of you who did, and so many things have been going through my head this past week. I had mentioned earlier that July is a very special month for me in more ways than one and my thoughts have wandered off to any different topics this month, correction many different thoughts.

The things that got me thinking what about inside self and outside itself. The two versions of me. You may be aware of this about yourself or maybe you are not aware, basically to put it in simple terms, the person who we believe we are, the way we see ourselves and the way we think and then the person that the other people see of how we are and what they believe is the way that we think. Why mention it?
Many may believe they have me figured out and if I’m not quite frankly is there own first mistake, I know myself best and I can’t even figure me out, where on earth does anybody get off believing in that they know me.
9 times out of 10 I can be calculated, cold and maybe even ruthless. And then one out of 10 times I can be sweet, dear, kind and soft. That my friends could be on any given Monday, Tuesday I could be 9 times out of 10 soft caring and compassionate. What makes the difference occur in me or the change that one day to the next I may be different? Do I have split personalities?
Pause for a moment to consider that question to yourself.

My answer is no.
What I find about myself and what I know is that in my physical size I am large, in my mental capacity I am strong, in my emotional self I am also strong. Though I too am human, would you say about me that I’m a big softy? Probably not.
So why can I change from a Monday to a Tuesday. My attitude is what will change; I do not change in my physical the certain parts of me I may not let out.
My thought process is inside always from a compassionate standpoint and I may act a little differently depending on the situation or circumstances I find myself in.
I see all the posts around the internet gurus and speaking on the mark of a man, the lion in the jungle and I know where I stand. I ask you to consider how and where you stand? I have always believed that to do as good as possible without harming another and so for that reason I believe so do most human beings. I wonder if it would have been possible to ask you to comment below this post about who you are or simply what you believe is inside other human beings. I have seen the filth and the horrible and the mean, I have also seen the good nature of folks who will do selfless acts. When I get to thinking about it, it is almost as if due to my vast experiences in life I have become less callous. I have been hardened to the realities though I believe in the nice.

When I hear somebody’s opinion of me, well to be honest previous times when I would hear someone speak of me, I would have gotten upset if they didn’t describe me exactly how I believe I am. Now the difference is I’ve learned who I am and I understand that how someone else sees me is totally their perspective. Well I now take a position of meeting people and seeing an understanding people at where they are at. Again another question.

Do you see people where they are at where they’re coming from or do you see how they’re story apply to where you are at?
My question to myself. Am I a fool to do good for others, well, I have always believed that if I can, then I will. So I truly believe I am not a fool.
Though I get frustrated and I am human, a pointer that came up for me was who is it that I get to ask to do for me?
Because I am physically strong, mentally strong and emotionally strong perhaps I might be viewed that I never am in need and I don’t whine and moan and complain about it. I still feel like I want a helping hand, an uplift and sometimes just an ear to dump and offload. Oftentimes if I begin speaking about any of my issues I have found that I’m received and replied to by another’s interpretation and the piece about themselves, maybe even advice. When we or just I are not asking for advice, we just want to be heard. Sometimes we just want to offload. Have you ever found that?

So how am I perceived by the world I live in? A big strong guy who’s a fool, a donkey perhaps? Or the guy you can ask for something and if he can he will?
What I do know about myself is that I will do for others what I can do and when I can do it. What I do know about myself is I will tell somebody NO when I cannot do for them.
Do you find yourself saying yes more often than you say no?

The reason I came up with this thought is that I found myself doing for others more than I was doing and taking care of myself recently. Rather than have a drastic cut off point and a big no, I will begin to say no more often and only consider doing for others when I have been taken care of first by me.